There is only one person in this world I feel I can trust with my life.My mother has been there for me through thick and thin. I know she would never in a million years let me down. It can be very difficult to break down my walls, and truly get close to me. I know this stems from being let down by every significant male figure in my life.
I very rarely feel "beautiful." And because of this, it's very hard for me to accept compliments. I would almost rather people be critical of me.
I wish I had more to offer this world.More time, more motivation, more influence.
I'm not sure I know what true love is supposed to feel like.Okay, I'm only twenty, so I suppose I've got many more years ahead of me to discover this. It's weird, although I've been in 3 long term relationships where the word "love" was tossed around, I'm not sure it was actually genuine. I feel like when it is for real, I will just know.
I don't always practice what I preach.I get on others for being a "product of their environment," but have come to realize that this is true for myself at times as well. Even when I try to pretend it's not, and I'm some saint-like being, we're all human.
I despise change.Always have, always will. Surely part of my Type A personality. Take me out of my routine, I get anxious and moody.
I don't want my real father to be the one to walk me down the aisle.He hasn't been there for me. My step-father will be the one to do the honors.
I'm not afraid of dying.Really. If it's meant to be.
I care way too much about how others percieve me. It's a fault. I'm the kind of person that wants everyone to like me. I will try to right things with anyone who I've wronged as soon as possible.
I cannot stand being alone.Okay so this is only partially true. Every once in a while I enjoy staying in and cuddling up with a book on my own, but too long alone and I go stir crazy. (Living on my own this summer is already killing me and it's only day 2!)
I wish I had more faith in my little brother's desire to get better.I love him more than anything, but don't trust that he has the gumption to do anything about his predicament. He's content with where he is in life, so why change?
I can't stand intolerant people. Racist people in particular are a major turn-off to me.
I could never date a smoker. Or someone who is always late. I cannot stand the smell of smoke. And my OCD tendencies kick in whne it comes to being on time. That would get on my last nerve.
I want to stay young forever.
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